Lately I have been spending a lot more time with people that are a lot younger than I am. I love spending time with them and they have made me rethink a lot of things about my life. I have come to the realisation that I enjoy spending time with them more than I enjoy spending time with people my age. Don’t get me wrong, I have great friends that are my age but none of them act like they are in their mid 30’s. I have come to the realisation that I don’t feel “grown-up” and, the truth is, I don’t want to be.
Maybe I should define what I mean by acting my age. I am currently 35. Whenever I hear that number in my head a whole bunch of responsibilities come to mind. I was 3 years old when my dad was this age, I see friends of mine buying houses, getting married, settling down, saving money and talking about growing up and being serious. I have at one point or another also had these thoughts but they never stick.
Instead of thinking of settling down, I dream of picking up and moving on. Instead of saving money to buy a house, I want to save money to travel the world. I want to change career instead of progressing in mine, I want to dabble in many fields instead of becoming a specialist in one. Most of all I feel like I have no idea of what I want and need to try a lot more things before I decide!
So, I guess the big question is: what I am I doing to get to where I want to go?I guess it’s kind of hard to decide when I have very little idea of where I want to go. For now I’m happy to finish my acting course and seeing where I am at summer. Hopefully interesting things are coming down the line, stay tuned to see what happens!